baby girl

Saiya RaeAnn Williams

Born on 9-18-10

9:45 a.m.

weighing 7 lbs. 8 oz.

length of 21 inches

Howdy

Yeah there is no excuse why I don't write as often as I'd like. I generally hop on the computer for facebook and by the time I done with that I don't feel like I have time for anything else other than house work and family. But I figured I'd cute my facebook time short today and actually write something. More for my sake than anything.

Still pregnant but officially 9 months. This little girl is due 3 weeks from Monday and I'm pretty anxious for her. It's been quite the pregnancy so far. we are just waiting for this little girl to go head down so I can deliver her. Currently my little flower is breech (butt first). We go to the hospital tomorrow and if she hasn't flipped on her own then they will flip her. They'll do an ultrasound to determine where she is at and then manipulate her from the outside of my stomach to the position they need her to be in. It will be tricky because she has already dropped into my pelvic bone so they will have to move her out of there... flip her around... and put her back. Dr. was nice and didn't sugar coat that it is going to feel pretty darn uncomfortable and to expect some pain but it is temporary pain compared to the recovery of a c-section. Hopefully we can get her to turn and hopefully she will do it quick and stay there. What would be even better is if she would just turn on her own and before tomorrows appointment so we don't have to go through that! But I'm prepared either way.

I've been officially jobless as of three weeks from tomorrow. That has been interesting. Took my son a couple days to adjust to me being home all the time and him not going to Grammy's. For the past 2 plus years he has been going to my mom's house for daycare so it has been an adjustment for her also. At this point I've just been trying to get things ready and set up with insurance through COBRA so I can have this baby without stressing. Paying for it is going to be tricky though. Its hard to budget for things on David's income alone and especially on something so incredibly expensive.

All in all I feel like life is going alright. granted there are stressers here and there but for the most part I feel blessed. Sometimes it hard to really see the blessings in our lives and especially when we are going through difficult times. But I trust in God and his faithfulness in his plan for me. He is taking care of me even when I don't realize it and ultimately is blessing me even though I may feel doubt or discouraged. He knows what he is doing and I just need to remind myself that sometimes. He'll take care of the insurance, the finances, and our baby girl. He is a good God... I just need to give him more credit.

Well I should go now that I've written a pointless informative blog :)

Hope all is well with everyone!

"C"aren

Skeeeeeee!

This is me 8 months pregnant :)

If you have been wondering at all what has happened to me...

I have been a relaxing incubator for my sweet little cupcake :)

As of Monday of this week I could go into labor between 5 and 8 weeks!

and that time decreases by a week every Monday :)

YAY!

Must say that I am getting nervous though about labor.

It is painful and unpredictable.

I am sure all will be fine and all will go well.

Just isn't fun!

But it sure is worth it!

:)

There is nothing cooler than seeing your baby for the first time.

For me there was an immediate connection with my son and I instantly fell in love with him.

He was tiny and new

and

he was all mine :)

I finally could see and touch the little guy that I had been growing in my belly for 9 months

and I was relieved that he was finally in my arms.

I never understood the love a mother has for her child until I had one of my own.

It is far more powerful than any earthly love I have ever experienced.

I feel so blessed! :)

and I feel even more blessed because now I can experience once again and what makes it even more special....

I get to experience it with my

DAUGHTER

:)

I have been doing much better since my last post... in case there was question.

It just seemed that everything kept piling up on me one right after another.

But I am feeling much better about things.

How has everyone else been?!

Ranting

Caren is honestly not a happy camper right now.
I don't generally post anything negative but I can honestly say that I feel like a beat dog right now and could seriously just bite someones face off.
If its not one thing its another these days and I feel like I have no one to talk about it even though I know I have people that would be happy to listen. I'm just so co-dependent that I don't want to bother or trouble anyone with my troubles. And the one person that I want to talk to and feel like I should be able to talk to... I can't because "he doesn't do well with emotion". whatever.
My job is coming to an end and it had me stressed out in may when I found out but I started feeling better because at the time obamacare had it set up for people who had been laid of to have 65% of their health insurance premium to be covered while on Cobra for 18 months. Well... they didn't pass that bill again and now I am left trying to figure out how in the world I am going to pay 1,191 a month. That amount is nearly double the amount of rent we pay. I have health issues that I need to take care of after the baby is born, I have a kid(s) that needs insurance (and especially once the baby gets here because the first year is full of shots and check ups!). Can't talk to my husband about that stress because its his stress too and whenever money is brought up he gets mad.
And then I had a scare with the baby a couple weeks ago and ended up in the hospital. That was an emotional roller coaster ride.
Then I get an email from a man I want absolutely nothing to do with acting like everything is fine and dandy 3 years after he screwed me and my son over.
Then my grandpa died the day before yesterday and I got barked at because i took the day off and hung out with a friend for a little bit even though the day was paid time off and I had just lost my grandpa!
Then my husband and I started fighting last night because I felt (and still feel) like he was being selfish on something so little.
I'm sick of the bickering. I'm sick of the money. I'm sick of the uncertainty. and yet I know that I just need to trust God. I just wish he would just take these stupid emotions away. I feel like crying and yet don't really want to. I just want to feel good. I just want to feel emotionally balanced and not so overwhelmed. I want to be taken care of and pampered by my husband.
I want to take a nap.
But I'll get over it. I always do.

Short and sweet

Ok. So I know that it has been a while since I have posted anything. I have been incredibly tired these days and I can't tell if it's the baby sucking the life out of me or if it is life sucking the life out of me. Ugh.

Wound up in the hospital about a week and a half ago due to some bleeding and "irritable contractions". All looks good with me and all looks good with Saiya but I tell ya... I was drained the rest of that week from the excitement around that whole ordeal. That has been about the only thing that has been not so fun other than my husband working all the time (which I'm grateful for because the income is of great help).

Got henna done with some ladies from my church last friday. We are the board for a woman's ministry progam at my church and we do fund raisers and community work projects around town. We are called "Soul Sisters" and try to involve any lady that is wanting and willing. We got the henna done though before our fundraiser last saturday. We had a summer fling and decorated lawn flamingos to put in peoples lawns. :) it was pretty fun. I have a couple pictures of the henna on my foot and on the sisters! :)

It isn't that dark for long though. If you haven't ever had henna done before... it comes out super dark brown and then starts to peel after it has dried. It lasts 1-3 weeks and that is dependent on your skin type and how well you take care of it.

That is the best I could get with my camera phone. It looks a little darker than that in real life. Its just stained onto your foot :)

Ya know... I'm running out of energy to post. I think I'm going to go and hang out with my kiddo. Sorry to cut it short. This kiddo is just sucking the life out me. Both of them are. lol Both Brodey and the baby in my belly! :)

Peace out!

Birthday Giveaway from SusannahBean

Hey everyone!

Susannahbean is having a free birthday giveaway in celebration of HER birthday!

Sorry I can't get the pic to post but this is what is in her birthday bundle so far...

What's included: *Cute owl magnet list pad*Woodgrain memo pad*Strawberry coin purse*My very own handmade Yoyo Headband*Essie nailpolish in Lilacism*Popsicle shaped bubbles*Daisy grow kit*Cupcake shaped lipgloss*Ice cream magnet*Pretty card in grey and yellow (one of my fave combos!)*Hello Kitty lip balms

Here is link to her birthday blog with details on how you can be part of the fun!

http://susannahbean.blogspot.com/2010/06/birthday-giveaway.html

I hope you all had a fun and blessed weekend!

Take care :)

"C"aren

Weekend wonder

So this last weekend was busier than I had anticipated it to be that was more than okay.

I drove to Sheridan, Wy on Saturday morning with my sister.

My nephew Kayce had an appt for newborn pictures and my sister's family photographer lives out of town so we made a special trip.

Here is Alissa doing her wonderful work with most adorable little baby boy at there. :)

This picture is of me and nephew, Bryce.

He came with and he and I hung out a little bit.

He is such a fun kid! :)

Love him too!

That was my exciting Saturday.

and then on Sunday there was a bunch going on.
Woke up and went to church.
Went home and ate lunch.
Took the most amazing nap ever!
Woke up and went to Home depot.
Bought gardening stuff.
Went to the grocery store.
Bought food stuff.
Went home and took turns gardening with David and cooking dinner.
Started my teacup birdfeeder (which is drying right now)
and finished the "garden"

Now our garden consists of this little area of dirt outside of our door. It was full of weeds and random crap from the person who lived here before us so David cleaned it out, tilled the dirt a little bit, and it was magically good enough to do some planting!
We are still adding onto it here and there but this is what it looked like on Sunday...

Well I suppose I should get going.

I have a kid with a cold that needs some loving...

and a bath...

and a tissue...

and some motrin...

and you get the point....


Blessings and Peace!